Gadgetory

hey guys so I figured I was going to go ahead and jump on this whole draw my life bandwagon a lot of you guys really wanted me to do it I thought it would be kind of hard I didn't really know if I wanted to throw that much personal life out on YouTube but I figured what the heck you guys are fans of Jays $0.02 and you want to know a little more about me so I figured I'll go ahead and do that for starters my real name is Jason and my middle name is Scott however I dodged a bullet because my middle name almost became Rutherford but my dad said hell no and he put his foot down and my middle name became Scott I was born on June 3rd 1981 and what I think is funny about that it when I look at old family photos my dad still had an afro but I was supposed to be born on May 12th 1981 so I was a little late to my own party I was born in a suburb of Boston called Newton you guys may have recognized that name from recent events in Boston I wasn't born to a very big family in fact my mother and my father had previous marriages in which they both had other kids we'll get more to that later my dad's name is Robert and my mom's name is Peggy and I had an six year older sister and her name is Debbie she wasn't too keen on having a little brother in fact she asked at one point if she could put me back and an important point there is no e on the end of her name it is Debbie with Ann I do not make the mistake of putting an e or she gets very upset and that's me running around terrorizing her going bang bang shooter with guns and really terrorizing her life because that's what little brothers do to big sisters as I mentioned both of my parents had previous marriages in which they had other kids by the time I came around all of the other kids were already grown and out of the house except for my older sister Debbie my mom had a daughter named Nanette she was a half-sister we call her nan and she has another daughter which you already heard of it's my half-sister Debbie she's still close to me to this day my dad had three boys on his side he had Robert jr. Daniel and David and all three of them were also grown in out of a house long before I was a twinkle in my mother's eye as my dad used to say so I don't have very close relationships with them because I never really got a chance to know them my dad was a career military man he spent over 20 years in the Navy as a weapons instructor he was in the Seabees he was also in the frogmen he did a lot of stuff in the military he was a bona fide badass you've heard me talk about him before after putting in more than 20 years in the United States Navy my dad retired from the military and started his own business doing project management for the government and private businesses my mom she was a records keeper and a police dispatcher for the Dallas Police Department and then the Ontario Police Department wants me moved to California she retired and she worked nights which was fine with me because I didn't get to see her much during the day when I was young we had moved from Newton all the way to Upland California when I was only one and then from Upland when I was four we moved to a little city called Rialto it's about 60 miles east of Los Angeles not a whole lot to see here most of you have probably never heard of it can't say I blame me when I was a kid I remember my father spending lots and lots of time on his computer doing programming writing software working and being a self-employed entrepreneur and our entire livelihood depended on it from the time that I was a little baby leaving dollops of poop behind me apparently I can remember my dad playing around on his computers and as I started to get older I started to get interested in computers and my first computer was a Commodore 64 and it was a really old computer that you had to do command lions and hit command prompts to make the programs run and I was so excited that I could run my own programs at my dad I remember him sitting behind me and saying that's my boy because I was only three years old the first time I ever learned how to use a Commodore 64 and if you've never seen one it's not like today you don't put in a you know CD and push play and off you go you had to manually do stuff my sister on the other hand since we had such a big age difference since she was six years older than me by the time I was old enough to do anything and that's a cord coming off the phone by the way we're talking about 80s here I was an annoying little brother and almost anything I did really seemed to bother her but I think that's kind of normal when you have that kind of age gap leaving my toys around and I'm asking her to play with me and she's tell me go away you're annoying and she's trying to play with her boyfriends and you know her friends and do the things that girls do which I didn't understand whatsoever and to this day I honestly still don't my parents tell me that when I was a small child they could put me on the floor with some toys or a coloring book or a book and I would spend hours and hours just playing and being quiet and not me Mesa's and just being the best little boy that you could possibly imagine because I wasn't a whole lot of trouble I was very quiet and I was very very shy but then came the very first day of school and that all changed I do remember my first day of kindergarten I was terrified my mom dropped me off and she went off to work and I was afraid because I didn't know what's going to happen I didn't know any of the kids and it was very very scary but the school had this racetrack out front where we could take our tricycles and we could ride around and some of them had a wagon and I always pulled the girls around and I became a ladies man at the age of kindergarten and I became known as the kindergarten pimp no I'm just kidding but I love school so much I came home and I haven't shut up since now his blah-blah-blah-blah-blah school school school and my mom said I never stopped talking since the first day of kindergarten and Here I am going on 32 years old and I'm still talking and doing it somewhat for a living but as with most people in school there became a time when I was bullied I was called stupid I was called retarded I was called fat even though it wasn't fat I was still called fat and of course it was happening by a group of boys that were constantly making my life a living hell and I didn't have any friends so that made things just that much more lonely and that much more difficult this same group of kids every single day never let up they used to sit there and block my entrance into the cafeteria and tell me that I wasn't welcome and that I was ugly and then I had no friends and that I shouldn't be in there and I didn't belong and that I should just go out into the schoolyard and sit in the grass by myself and eat lunch because nobody want to be around me because I smelled and I spent pretty much every day of school by myself outside this didn't only happen at school this same group of boys would hide behind trees and hide behind bushes and they knew where I lived and they would stop somewhere along the path of the school in my house and they would wait for me behind trees and when I would come riding by on my bike they would be waiting for me and next thing I know they're throwing rocks at me and one of them one time hit me in the face and I remember falling off my bike and all of the other school kids were there and saw it and nobody did anything we tried to help nobody tried to make them stop I just was completely alone in that situation but I do remember one day in the second grade a new kid moved into the school and he immediately became my friend his name was Nathan and he was a little bit older than me and so he was kind of like a role model because he told me don't listen to those guys those guys are stupid they're you don't worry about them just come hang out with me so we did all sorts of stuff together and we play tetherball and go on the swings and we talked about games because we had Nintendo and we just had a really good time and I wasn't being bullied so much but one day Nathan told me that he had to move his father was in the military and they were moving so once again I found myself by myself in the playground rocks being thrown and being bullied every single day of my life it was so bad I looked for reasons not to go to school like every other kid who's ever been bullied I pretended to be sick but that only works for so long before your parents realize you're faking and they think you just don't want to go to school but you don't really tell them the truth because you just are kind of ashamed that you are being bullied and you're not sticking up for yourself one day in middle school this had been going on for a solid five years by this point at least this same kid every single day would keep pestering me and calling me names and blocking my way and knocking things out of my hand but by now I had grown taller and I had grown bigger but my self-esteem had been so damaged that I still allowed myself to be bullied and I remember once I told my dad about this bully and his advice to me was defend yourself so one day this kid cornered me in the locker room at the gym and he wouldn't let me leave and at this point I became very angry and I saw red and I remember just losing control and I punched this kid square in the face and next thing I knew he was on the ground and all of his friends couldn't get out of there fast enough I've never been bullied a day in my life since that event that's the first time in my life I felt like I had actually stood up for myself and my confidence was running high I was feeling good nobody was messing with me and things were going pretty good for me in fact that computer thing I talked about earlier the computer aids and the computer lab used to regularly call me out of class because they need to help fixing the computers because they didn't know how to fix them so you can kind of consider that my very first IT gig life went on as it generally has a way of doing I went into high school and I became into sports I was really good at tennis I even coached tennis I played on the tennis team for the school I played football I was big I was strong and I had a lot of friends things were going pretty good for me and then I noticed I really was shy I had a hard time talking to people I girls would approach me and they would want to hang out and they would tell me that they thought that I was cute or that I was funny I didn't notice it had boobs and I liked it but I was still really shy but my very first girlfriend I remember we did everything together and one day she cheated on me and she broke my heart but that's okay a new girl came along and once again she cheated on me and broke my heart I started to really have a hard time trusting people because of the bullying and the girls making fun of me and I just had a really hard time dealing with it and I noticed I started to cope with food and I started to put on weight by this time I figured who would want to be with a fat loser like me and all those things that the kids used to call me back in grade school and middle school started to come back and haunt me but this one girl came and she said I think you're cute and I think you're funny and she started to bring back my confidence and I started to work out and I started to lose weight I had just graduated high school and we were falling in love and when I was 18 I asked her to marry me and she said yes I was really excited I thought my life was going forward and I couldn't wait to see what was next but one day she told me she was moving to San Diego because she was going to live with her mom she had been living with her grandma up until that point so I said okay that's fine we can make this work so every single weekend I would hop in my truck and I would drive down to San Diego and she would be there waiting for me with her boobs and everything was great and I was happy and she was happy and we were planning out our life and I'd spent all of my money to get her an engagement ring she lived at the marina in San Diego which is where they parked the boats and she lived on a boat I came to surprise her one day and I brought some flowers I didn't tell her I was coming down to San Diego to visit her and one of her co-workers she worked at the restaurant stopped to tell me that she was at the pool so I thought that was a little bit weird because he had kind of a weird look on his face so I went to the pool to see what was going on and there she was she was in the pool and I could see her she was kind of swimming around there were other people in the pool and next thing I know she grabs one of the muscley 6-pack Marina guys that you would expect to see and they kiss and right as I was walking up I couldn't believe what I saw and I yelled out what the hell and she turned around and she was very sad and that guy she was with told me to get lost and at that point I just walked away and she chased me down and I asked her for the truth and the truth was a little more than I think that I could handle because I found out that there were a lot more people in fact she had cheated on me 13 times since we'd become engaged I was entirely crushed I didn't know how to handle it I had never at that point been with anyone who hadn't cheated on me and every single relationship I had just ended with the same result of being cheated on and I thought about ending my life on that trip home from San Diego and just driving off of a cliff but I decided that I was going to get even that this was Jay's turn to make somebody get hurt why did I always have to be the one who was being hurt all the time so I set out to find somebody that I could get to trust me and then intentionally cheat on them that way for once I'm not the one that's always being hurt so I met this really cool girl after dating somebody that didn't work out for only a couple of days and it turned out that she thought I was cute and I told her that she was pretty fly because it was 1999 and that's the way we talked in the 90s so don't judge me I still think she's fly to this very day but I told myself I don't care if I'm falling out with this girl I'm gonna break her heart because that's what I set out to do but next thing I knew I forgot all about those plans and I fell in love with this girl and she had entirely rekindled my hope that maybe I could be married one day but alas we broke up because all of the things that have happened to me in the past just kept coming and haunting me and I was a mean person and we broke up but we got back together and next thing I know I asked her to marry me and we're getting married and everything is happy and it's beautiful and she's got this gorgeous dress and his beautiful music playing in October 15th and 2005 I married my soul mate and you guys know her today as Miss J's two cents this woman took me and returned to me back to the kind of person I thought I was going to be but something was happening to me I was changing I was putting on a lot of weight my self-confidence was gone and I was turning to food as a comfort coping mechanism and I had grown to nearly 500 pounds but one day I was on my way to work and I was sitting in traffic on the freeway and a big truck hit me from behind doing 60 miles per hour and it completely crushed my vehicle and this is when I realized I had hit rock bottom because it took eight firefighters to lift me on the gurney and to put me in the ambulance I was so big I didn't even fit in the MRI machines I couldn't even get a cat scan because I was too big to fit in any of the emergency room equipment that's when I made the choice to get bariatric gastric bypass surgery and on May 27 2009 one of the nation's leading experts on bariatric surgery gave me a laparoscopic version of the surgery and I began to lose weight and next thing I know day after day I'm getting skinnier and I'm getting skinnier and my confidence is coming back and I'm starting to be a happy person again and on April 17th 2009 the best thing that could possibly happen in my life was about to happen my wife and I had gone to the hospital and she had a baby monitor hooked up to her and she was having contractions and she was screaming and I was terrified and it was all worth it because next thing I knew I was a dad and I was so excited and it was a girl I couldn't believe it she was so cute she looked like her mom she looked like me I didn't know what to do I was terrified I didn't know what kind of dad I was gonna be and I've got my daughter and I've got my wife and I've got my health but for some reason that didn't really seem to make any sort of a difference because I kept finding myself sad I still had no confidence because I had never developed any confidence in myself because of that group of kids my entire life that sat there picking on me and when I was fat and that as an adult I had adults picking on me so I never had an opportunity to develop any sort of confidence so last year on a dare I started a YouTube channel just where I wanted to talk about different technology things that I really liked I didn't expect it to go anywhere didn't expect anybody to watch I would have watched me after all I was a boring guy but next day I knew people were saying I was funny and I was cool and I was smart and my channel was growing and we're almost 10,000 subscribers sure there's people on YouTube who still like to say mean and hurtful things but for every mean comment there is there's five or six good comments that you guys give me that make me feel better about myself every single day and it makes me want to go harder it makes me want to try and do better and it makes me want to bring you guys the best content that I possibly can and just keep going and just see how far we can take this thing together thank you for that you guys have been instrumental and getting my confidence back thank you