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god this video is so hard I'm not I've lost track of how many times I've stopped and started the camera how's Jerry do this all the time like Jerry's gotten a probe just standing sitting in front of the camera and pouring his heart out to everybody ah that guy's such a I got such a shill for what I don't know is shilling for something so I just want to talk to you guys all right I want you to hear me out and I want you to listen to the whole video might be I know how long it's going to be but guys I'm gonna say some things that are important and I want you to listen okay I don't give a about the like button I don't care about the dislike button I don't even care about the comments I'm probably not even going to read the comments if you want to know the truth the comments section here on YouTube is just the cesspool of humanity it is so full of negativity it's not even funny it makes me feel bad cuz I mean some of your some of you guys are must be dealing with some really gnarly because the I said gnarly I'm an eighties kid deal with it so many guys must really be going through some hard times with how much you just hate people how much you hate the world man you guys are like the Joker you just want to see burn I started this channel to prove that it would never go anywhere and as somebody who's had a tough time with bullying growing up I get my fam I want to reiterate my family dynamic was good my parents were good to me my sister was rough on me but sibling rivalry is it's not that uncommon I had to deal with literally torture in school physical torture as well until I finally stood up for myself cracked a dude's jaw and then things got better from that point because I literally something changed in me that day and if you've watched my dream draw my life something changed in me that day and I no longer take from people I don't and some of you love that about me and a lot of you hate that about me a lot of you hate that when someone comes at me is like Jay you're such a dick hole you're a fat prick you're such an idiot and when when I when I see that comment and I respond to it and I tell them what a what a you know what I truly think of them and if you're one those people that come at me or like Jay you have to be nice you had a you you hear held to a higher standard than him no that I don't deal with double standards I am a do unto you as you do unto me kind of person you treat me good man I will give you the shirt off my back I will give you every dollar in my wallet and I will it and I'll never ask for it back but if you treat me wrong man I will come at you as hard as you've given it to me threefold so it's hard for me to disengage from a lot of the negativity and I hate the fact that there is so such a loud minority you hear it all the time the silent majority the silent majority Latino they'll spend 5 10 20 hours on some of these videos depending on what we're doing is it so much to ask that for your favorite youtuber you just click the like button it takes one second leave a positive comment some of us spend hours and hours making this content and if you liked it like spend 10 seconds leaving a positive comment stop being silent because all that does is leave us having to deal with the only people that are speaking up which are the haters and the aggressive criticizers now criticism is okay I've made changes on this channel due to criticism people say I don't know how to take criticism I take criticism very well the way you deliver your criticism is going to determine the entire dynamic of how that criticism is received I hate the fact that there's days I wake up and I start thinking about how to back away from all of this because I'm sick and tired of having to deal with the double standards that are out there in terms of the comments and the criticism but I still love making videos for you guys I do and it's I want to get I want to get back to where I would be so excited to make a video and you hear here youtubers say this all the time and it's those whiney and I know there's new mortgage I'm so stressed out videos and that's not the point of this video I'm just discussing with you guys but I used to literally come home from work throw down my backpack and would just go to the office shut the door and not come out until the middle of the night because I love making videos for you guys but I mean I have to why am i why am i eyes look like this because I spend so much time dedicated to making videos working overtime even like throughout the entire day the only time I can even find time to game me anymore is late at night when everyone's asleep and so I stay up late because I want to play some games and then I get up in the morning my eyes look like this no matter how much Visine I use so if you guys see my eyes like this it's usually because I made some sort of a dedication to the channel that I'm paying for it physically I pay for it with lack of sleep and a diet that's constantly proper and improper all the time you know I mean I lost 70 pounds last year and I'm still told Jay you're fat Jay you got flabby arm so guess what I used to weigh 500 pounds will 494 close enough I swore I hit 500 I was going to put a bullet in my head and I was dead serious dead serious as a pun I think right I've lost over 250 pounds and I still deal with weight comments I have lost more than some overweight males weight and I still take criticism for the way that I look because you know what when you wreck your body like I did there's there's issues and for me it sucks I've got someone is underarm flab but you know what I lift weights three times a week I ride my bike I try to eat right I've lost a lot of weight and I'm strong I'm healthy I can go from 50-plus miles on a bike ride no problem and yet people still come at me trying to make health comments towards not as much as they used to because last year I was I was quite plump I've come down quite a bit since last year but I mean this is this what I'm saying I'm put yourself in my shoes for once try it it's not easy put yourself in my shoes imagine you've spent seven years and you've lost 200 and over 250 pounds and then someone makes a your fat comic could you imagine like how up that is to say to someone the problem is more people make they don't stop to think about these comments they just put them out there and whatever I guess it is what it is that's what happens when you make your living on the end of the Internet but you know what sucks though is I made this channel dedicated to the consumer I'm still dedicated to the consumer I am a consumer you guys think everything I gets for free it's not I'm a consumer I buy things and I still go to youtube to find references on things I want to buy I still stand in the middle of Micro Center on my smartphone looking up reviews on something even though I'm a reviewer because I don't take only my opinion into account I don't only take my reviews into account and I tell people all the time look at multiple reviews don't just take what I say for it but yet people want to call me a shill or a sell hour or iím doing is damage control for a company like this whole EBG a thing the whole point of that video was to tell you that hey if you have one of these cards don't freak out EVGA is going to RMA if there's a problem they're going to fix it this is what they're telling me and I want to show you how to apply the fix if you didn't want to wait for the RMA but now people were claiming that I'm doing damage control that's a sponsored video that I took money to make them look better I'm gonna take a dime for that I don't even put an ad on that video I mean it's like my dedication that everything has to do with the audio and yet I still have to deal with these false claims and it sucks because that's an attack an attack on integrity and integrity is everything as far as I'm concerned unfortunately it hurts you guys now because before all of this came about before all of the vrm thing I had already worked out because as I'm getting closer to a million subscribers I want to start giving away more things and I want to lead to a big giveaway that I am planning was planning I'm decide we're gonna do with that anymore a huge giveaway that I wanted to do and I sent this message to EVGA guys I was going to give away three graphics cards a 10 60 at 1017 to 1080 and EVGA and I were going to collaborate on that because I'm a huge fan of EVGA I've been I have been a customer of theirs since the what 2003 and 2003 a customer guys it's only recently that I've been able to actually have any sort of a relationship with them which is really really awesome but look this is what I wrote this is what I wrote to Jacob but EVGA you ready I said I feel like I need to restructure my giveaway coming up due to the constant claims that I am only doing damage control for EVGA the timing isn't very good and giving away three EVGA GPUs will only strengthen that false claim so I plan to give away three graphics cards and now I'm cancelled it I've cancelled it because of the false claims out there and it's one of those deals where the the minority ruined it for the majority Gannett I'm doing the Donald Trump thing I mean I know if he does like kung-fu on the weekends but anyway god this election sucks - oh my god now people like to say things like Jay you don't live in the real world you've got a big house you've got a nice car and you you're surrounded by stuff you know you don't know what it's like to be a hard-working person who has to who has to earn their money that that's got to be the stupidest statement I think I've ever heard I'm guarantee I put more hours into this content than most people put in that they're nine to five and what's that saying self employments the only jobs some will work 80 hours to avoid working forty hours that holds true here my freshman year in high school we lost our house my parents went bankrupt my father was self-employed most of my childhood after he got out of the military and man there was some serious ups and downs financially so for anyone that would make any sort of comment that I don't know what it's like to struggle I know what it's like to get free food from the church when we were growing up I know what it's like to have to I actually worked with my parents to try and earn money for the family when I was like 12 okay we were doing we were doing volunteer work at the church in exchange for food so don't tell me I don't know what it's like to have to live near the bottom so forgive me if I don't feel bad for working myself up through the ranks of shitty jobs that paid minimum wage to jobs that paid mediocrity to a little bit better and then spent 10 years building up my portfolio with a company the where I worked myself up to middle ish management if you will and then made a name for myself here where I was actually able to make my own living and control my own finances so yeah forgive me for spending nearly 20 years of my life doing that so anyway moving forward I just I couldn't I could not make another video I could not get into a creative mindset until I made this video because it's bugging me it's it's bugging me you can tell if you know if you follow up me enough and you watch my vlog channel you know what this is this is called trichotillomania it's a nervous disorder or nervous condition where you hair pool and you don't realize you're doing it so I'll sit there on the computer or whatever if I'm driving and I'll just be kind of sitting there like one of the hair pull it out pull it out pull it and you don't realize you're doing it okay if you've ever people who have nervous twitches don't realize they're doing it so don't be like Jared's with thought doing that's the stupidest thing you could say to somebody but anyway I don't realize I'm doing it so then what do I do I take a razor and I shave it because I'm like well it gets all spotted and it looks ridiculous so I shave it and worked overtime it works its way back and now I've got to deal with two months of J what the hell's going on with your hairline while I let it grow back only to repeat the cycle which I had been doing since I was like 12 yeah I started this when I was 12 guys trust me that's what 23 years I'm trying ok it's not easy it's just not but here's the thing I still continue to put myself in front of the camera ridicule and all I never wanted to I never wanted to be famous I only did this channel to prove to Josh you know who you are that this would never work and it did and all I want you guys to understand is my devotion is always going to be to the audience the audience first there is no brand out there that could pay me enough to give up my integrity none not NVIDIA not EVGA not AMD definite IMD but hey nobody has enough money to buy me you can't if you guys could only see the amount of money I'll leave on the table if you could see the amount of money I leave on the table I have no doubt so many of you calling me a sellout or a shill would jump at that opportunity because we are talking thousands of dollars a week I don't take I limit my income significantly compared to what it could be if I was willing to do pre rose and post roles and marquees and pop ups and like some other youtubers do if I was willing to do that I would be living in a house twice as big and I'd be driving a GTR my wife be driving Mercedes whatever it is that she wants I wouldn't be driving a used 370z I can say that if only you guys knew but yet I'm still a shill I'm still a sellout right you know the difference is here I control the ads when I when I sell an ad spot I control it I control what the product is I control the verbage when it goes live I control how often you guys get to see it where it appears Adsense is okay wait let me tell you let me tell you a little secret about Adsense because of the popularity of adblock in it being so easily - such an easy extension to plug into your browser's I last month was the highest viewed month I've ever had on my channel okay just over five million views I usually sit in the three or four just over five do you know how many of those views were monetizable 1.6 that's a point guys six million 1.6 million out of over 5 million do the percentage math of how many people are blocking our income potential and that's okay though it's okay because Adsense and AdWords really sucks they put the wrong ads in front of you guys Google doesn't have a clue as to how to take the tags that we put in our videos and sync that up with with ads and that's ok but let me tell you something right now and this is the blunt abrasive Jay coming out and you may not like what I'm about to say listen to me if you use adblock and then you bitch and complain that I put an ad in the video that makes you a jerk it makes you a jerk because I'm telling you it's fine to use adblock but it's not okay to block the ads and then complain that I have to make a living here for content you consume for free it's not okay it's not it's not okay to do it to me or anyone else so you just have to deal with it because the ads aren't going anywhere but at least you can take some solace in the fact that I control them I only put ads in the things that I'm relative or that I care about yeah I did a Norton ad I paid for that ad dearly and I I didn't do another one and I know what not to do in the future you see somebody who only cares about money and selling out would be like god I don't care look at the amount of money that is there's a lot of zeros on that ad so if you got yeah it's sad how many people I know complaining about selling out and shilling god man they would sell themselves in a heartbeat if they saw some of these dollar signs and I'm leaving on the freaking table because I don't I don't like ads myself and I want to control them and that's that's that's how this is that's how this works that's how this whole game works and I think for some of the abuse I take it's perfectly worth it and acceptable anyway guys I'm going to go I couldn't I could not get into a creative mindset until I made this video this has been boiling up and boiling over and affecting more than just my attitude here regarding the channels perfecting attitude in my daily life and I don't like that so here's what I'm going to do I'm going to take this put it on the channel I'm going to do some minimal editing to it send it up and I'm going for a bike ride and then tomorrow if you're still here I would do the best I can to make you guys entertained and if you decide to leave because you like what you hear in this video well then I'm only left with supporters anyway so I don't see how I'm losing there all right guys thanks for watching see you next time