Gadgetory

have you ever been scared and I mean really really scared well it's from somebody beating you up from being in a car accident fear of dying from something that's your end well that's where I'm at right now I am so scared of going to the hospital and losing my leg that I should have already checked in the hospital a couple of days ago but I am literally just so nervous and so scared about what's going on that I've been procrastinating and I know that's wrong I should already be in the hospital but things just took a really bad turn for the worst last week last Friday I made a video because on the very end of my foot it kind of turned like this little like dark ball but then over the weekend that ball swelled up and literally exploded and I'll show you guys a picture of what my foot looks like so I'll give you its graphic very graphic and it's gross but I'll show you a picture just you know exactly what I'm going through you know that I'm not bullshitting you whatsoever I've fought this now for two years for two years I've been taking different antibiotics food you guys have seen how much weight I've lost I'm really just I'm not all that healthy it's starting to honestly get to me mentally really bad I've been just staying in my bed since Friday lying there I dragged myself out of bed right now because the cameramen guys down are just trying to get some stuff done so we can do it so Jesus been trying to take care of that buddy's been sad because he knows I'm just sitting in my bed and honestly dude my foot stinks so bad it just smells like death it's just so unbelievably horrible so I won't be able to produce as many videos I don't know at the hospital I'm going to which is Loma Linda if they're going to allow me to film inside of there if they do I'll make videos or swing my wheelchair in the hallway and I can still bring some videos to you guys from there at least videos about speculation and stuff but I will be checking in the hospital later on today I can't put it off anymore whatsoever so I just want to let everybody know and this is probably going to cost me millions of dollars so I am going to start a GoFundMe because I'm gonna need to make about two thousand dollars just to be able to at least pay my rent next month and keep going so if you ever really did care about me not many people actually really helped with the patreon thing you know but hopefully with this it will make things a little bit easier for me and I'll be able to at least go take care of my medical stuff and then come back and be here for you without that I pretty much see myself I may I may even go under I don't know I don't want to but I'm really struggling with that fact because I just don't know what life is going to be with without a leg so real quick here let's check out my foot you guys can see that all the skin off the end of my foot has all completely come off all you see down there now is just thing but a bunch of pus and the bone and it's really bad so this is it for me folks I'll try to be back on here as soon as possible I don't know how long I'm going to be in the hospital I'm gonna be there as long as it takes if you're a religious person out there please pray for me if you're not that kind of person could you at least do me the courtesy of sending me your positive thoughts and byes because I could use all the support I can get right now because even though I'm a grown man I'm a grown man who's scared out of his head