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hey everybody out there I honestly didn't think I was gonna be able to make videos ever ever again but finally after numerous doctors all kinds of crazy stuff going on I finally am seeing a light at the end of the tunnel now let me just tell you a little story so I go and see this doctor out here in Moreno Valley I don't mention his names I don't him to sue me or anything but I go there and I'm literally in tears crying begging the stalker telling him how bad my shoulder and my neck and everything is hurting and the guy just basically takes you know 200 dollars of my money and says oh hey you know what we'll schedule for an MRI 30 days from now 30 days from now so I tell this guy I'm in so much pain that I just feel like committing suicide and guess what they try to do they try to have me committed yeah committed for insanity so it's okay to leave me in so much pain that I want to die but the second that I say I want to die from the pain I'm all of a sudden this sociopathic criminal America health you suck on the big time and a doctor how dare you threatened to have me locked up because I'm in so much pain and how dare you leave me suffering for 30 days with an MRI I finally contacted a really good doctor that I have used to see in Fullerton named dr. Karl has he's a great guy he scheduled me for an MRI and that's what I really need also the diagnosis of Parkinson's complete BS I don't have Parkinson's disease so all that stress and all this stuff that's been going on in my mind is all for nothing so here's what's going on I haven't really been able to hold any food down for literally two and a half months everything that I've eaten I've thrown up and in the last 30 days alone I've lost 27 pounds you guys can probably see it in my face and my arms I've lost all my body mass I haven't been able to move from my bed now the reason I'm shaking so hard and you can see right now I'm finally not shaking is because my blood sugar was down at like 87 and sometimes lower because I'm not holding any food so my blood sugar just kept dropping and dropping and dropping and dropping to dangerous levels til I was shaking like a leaf while all of this shaking seems to have done a lot of damage to my shoulder and my neck so now they're thinking that I possibly have a herniated disc in my neck I finally did get a shot from another doctor he gave me a shot right in the shoulder muscle and it's kind of ease the pain enough where I can like get out of bed and feel like doing something yesterday was the first day that I was able to eat any food at all without throwing it up and then today me and Angie the cameraman we went to be Jason the doctor said you know what spoil yourself eat really good food healthy food screw burgers and all that other crap or anything like that and believe me my diets completely changed now the keto diet thing I'm sorry I'm just not going on it's not my thing I don't mind dieting I don't mind eating healthy but I'm not putting my body through anything else through all of this I discovered that YouTube videos everything else in life doesn't matter except for my health my health is the number one thing there is and I honestly haven't taken care of myself very well I'm always just worried about trying to pump these videos and do stuff to matter how sick that I've ever felt right now is the best that I've felt in two-and-a-half months and there's finally a light at the end of the tunnel because tomorrow I'll be able to get the MRI I'll be able to find out what's going on with this shoulder pain what's going on and get it healed now yesterday I went to see the foot doctor because I was really worried about getting my leg amputated but I went to the doctor yesterday and this doctor Gaskell it was a really nice guy as soon as I walked into his office he told me man you know what I don't mean to offend you or scare you but you look like you're dying you look so sick and I literally just broke down and started crying again I was hallucinating and he knew I was hallucinating cuz I hadn't slept in 11 days I was literally seeing stuff out of the corner of my eyes it was driving me completely nuts well he looked at my foot and everything and I'm not infected whatsoever I do have an ulcer in my foot but he's given me some medication and a new a new type of boot to wear where he says hopefully with continuous of treatment I'll be able to heal that and not my leg so that is a double thumbs up for me and being told that I had Parkinson's disease literally scared the crap out of me I cried in my bed shook in my bed and was just so scared because of that these doctors out here in Moreno Valley are honestly the worst I've ever seen and I'm not directing this towards the Moreno Valley Family Healthcare Center where I got my diabetes stuff I've only seen a guy named Ryan there who's a PA but all these other doctors I've gone and spent big money on giving them cash to find out what's wrong with me giving me misinformation or not even helping me I mean literally how would you feel if you went into a doctor's office in so much pain that you're crying and you're begging the doctor to help you he tells you yeah we'll schedule you for an MRI for 30 days out so what am I supposed to do for 30 days I'm just supposed to sit around and cry and be sick and not be able to eat or do anything with my body as I deteriorate because you can't get off your lazy ass and schedule me an MRI appointment I made one phone call to dr. Hess this morning I was crying and I was upset and I explained my situation and he instantly got me an appointment tomorrow for an MRI now it's gonna cost me close to 600 dollars out of my pocket which I don't have right now because I've been working but one way or another we'll figure that out but finally there is a light at the end of the tunnel I don't have Parkinson's disease my legs probably not going to get amputated and everything's due to probably something wrong in my neck or in my shoulder now another thing that I did is that there's this this disease out there and it's called frozen shoulders what the vernacular is in the diabetic Tim Babette excuse me the diabetic term but it's it's has a meta meta medical term I'm trying to think of as I do the video without a script I'm just trying to bring all this stuff out to you but basically what it is that all in your shoulder because you're diabetic gets scar tissue inside of there and when you get this scar tissue inside of there it makes it so that your arm completely becomes eMobile now the only thing is those when I started talking to dr. Hess about this he said that wouldn't cause you to have all the problems you're having and let me tell you man this is extreme stuff when that pain hit I would literally throw up pee and poop myself completely uncontrollably because of the pain is called adhesive capsulitis is what it's actually called and that and that's that the terminology for it so what I did is I went and looked online and the gentleman out there sir thank you very much for sending me the message about your wife going with that procedure well guess what I did the procedure to my damn self my roommate helped me out and it was probably the most excruciating thing I've ever done so I got in the shower I turned the hot water on so hot on my shoulder that was basically almost like making me blister and he took my arm and he jerked it in every different freaking direction that there is and we pulled my arm and jerked my arm back and I literally just threw up poop peed threw up poop peed until I thought I was going to die well the next day after that it kind of moved over so instead of being in my shoulder it was over in my neck and I couldn't even move my neck at all at all I couldn't lay down even I just sat up in my bed and just sat there like a frickin zombie literally it was like I tried reading books I tried watching TV and something that kind of really blows my mind too is that I lost total enjoyment for everything in my life everything I mean honestly this is the saddest and most painful time in my entire life I didn't think that a human being could be in this much pain I've had amputations I've had surgeries I crashed my motorcycle when I was in xx a to scrape my whole back out nothing compared to the pain of what's going on up here so now they're saying that probably most likely I have some herniated discs in my neck and I'm gonna have to start some some treatments of getting injections in my neck to get rid of the pain I'm really hoping and praying that that's what it is and it's kind of weird as soon as I talked to dr. Hesse about this and the MRI was scheduled it was almost like someone flipped a switch like we went out we ate I feel a little bit nauseous but I had a really good meal I had a really nice meal I had some grilled chicken I had some other chicken some veggies and I actually had some sugar you might say oh my god not sweet sugar well your blood Sugar's 87 men trust me you need to put some sugar in your damn body and I feel right now actually more human than I've felt in the last two and a half months and I am so grateful to God to all of you and I want to clarify a couple things - it seems like a lot of people when I said somebody aids is that I think I said that I said atheists don't care about anything I never said anything like that of the sort I also never said I hated AMD people just need to put things into my mouth and and shove them out there and try to make them fact what I said is that atheists really don't believe in a higher power that's my conception of it I'm willing to learn atheist usually believe in themselves and the things around them it's not they don't care about anything you guys make it out some of you anyways making out like oh I said atheist are just like these cold uncaring people and that's that's not the way it is they just have a different belief system my particular belief system because of things that have happened in my life and that I believe in God and I believe in Jesus that's just how I am you know whether I'm wrong right or otherwise that is what I feel comfortable with and I and I'm not against what anybody else out there believes at all you're entitled to your belief system and who knows I could be totally wrong you know I haven't died gone to the other side you know met a dude named God and came back and said all right hey here's the proof so how the heck do I know that's just my belief system and the whole thing with AMD I didn't like being controlled by people they're trying to tell me what to do because that's just completely wrong and that doesn't bring you any accurate reviews whatsoever and I still we've gone through three motherboards three CPUs multiple power supplies I cannot get the rise into system to go at all I don't know what's going on with it I'm almost ready just to like just go uh-huh we're gonna once again called Peter Ramos tomorrow over at AMD and Peter's a guy that I worked with a long time ago back in the ATI days he's a straight shooter and a good guy and I'm glad at a contact there that I know from the past but there's just something up with this I know a lot of people say okay you know you've got to change all this stuff and upgrade the voltage or the memory knowledge stuff well that's not truly an out-of-the-box experience if I have to get something going and change everything like an overclock or just to get it to run standardly that's a major pain in the butt because a lot of people out there excuse me our complete beginners and don't know how to do this stuff so it's going to be hard for them we've been doing this for years and years and years come on three power supplies three motherboards three CPUs different cases in the case out of the case we cannot get it to go into Windows whatsoever I know some people are saying oh you need to buy thirty-two hundred megahertz memory really I have to buy thirty two hundred maker it's memory or my systems not gonna work I mean come on this is just crazy stuff I should be able to take any AMD parts just like anybody else's parts take them put them together get a system install Windows and move on about my day now we have about eleven days of failure on Sunday anthing geo cider all day long tearing systems apart changing stuff trying to get it we change monitors like you guys said we've tried every single thing that there is and still absolutely no luck and if you think I want AMD to fail you're absolutely totally incorrect I want AMD to succeed you cannot have monopoly America I don't want Intel to be the sole thing that we go to you if you think that you really have no idea who I am or what I'm about I'm into technology and I want AMD to succeed just as much as all the AMD fans even though I'm not a crazy fanboy he's gonna basically throw myself on a stake and act like I'm a mad murderer over it I want them to succeed at the end of the day I want people to have choice and to be able to buy an affordable choice for themselves so please quit like feeding all these things and assuming things about me that are completely wrong I'm a really nice guy I know myself I know my heart I've helped people my whole life helping them doing things to them and bending over backwards to help make other people's lives better I'm not some evil guy who's over here plotting against people and hating a and B it's just not me whatsoever so to wrap this video up hopefully tomorrow my MRI will tell exactly what is going on I will finally get the proper medication and get myself healed and begin to come back on a road of recovery where I can be a normal youtuber again and bring you guys videos like I was before almost every day because I really like bringing you guys videos and yeah I admit sometimes I make mistakes I'm human I'm probably gonna make mistakes into the future I thought we were an online family we can all learn together I never claimed that I am the absolute most smartest tech guru in the world I've never ever said that I'm just an enthusiast like you I like to play games I like to build systems I really like the way cool systems look and all the parts of them the way they glow the RGB just I'm into all that stuff it's just totally cool so please chill hopefully I'm going to be better I will bring you guys an update in a couple of days I probably will have to still take a couple more days off because obviously if they start giving me injections stuff it's probably going to hurt me and I'm really hoping that tonight I'll get my first night of solid sleep that I've had I do feel right at this point I guess just because the very fact that I think I have hope now I feel better inside I thank all the people out there who sent me their wonderful messages you guys are awesome hearing your personal stories I know for a fact that I am by no means in in this boat by myself there are thousands of people out there suffering who've had their wives die their family members died their parents died and all these bad things that happened to them and hurt them and I'm really sorry for you people I really do I feel bad for you it hurts me to see those message from you honestly it does it hurts me to see people talking about their family members who died and the pain that causes them and and I hope that they in through all this I haven't caused any of you any pain I've been just struggling so hard to find a balance with this pain in my life that it's literally drove me crazy and trust me if you ever feel so bad you want to kill yourself don't say anything because they'll lock you up until you're insane regardless of how much pain you're in so you're not allowed to be in pain you've got to just deal with it