Gadgetory

okay so today I'm coming to you guys live from my wheelchair yes I'm back in a wheelchair and I'm pretty pretty angry about it I have to admit I'm I like my ropes end with this stuff man I feel like honestly like I'm in some kind of totally screwed up Groundhog Day but the only thing is that my Groundhog Day is every time I turn around my foots infected again and I'm gonna need more surgery so once again I'm in this wheelchair so you guys know I went through all that surgery all that stuff last year crazy stuff almost lost my leg they said I was good to go it was healed I stuck on a crazy diet I wasn't even eating anything for the longest time and I started walking it seemed like it was okay but then we went to CES and my foot opened up and since then it's just gotten continually worse and worse and worse till now I'm back to where I can't walk anymore at all I've got another ulcer in my foot and once again they're like oh you may lose your leg or you may lose what's left of your foot you guys have no idea how frustrating depressing and just mind my own him I just mind you know the word I want to use starts with an F you know I'm you guys know the word I want to use I feel mine straight up like into my mind my head is just filled was so much stressed and anguish over this it doesn't seem like no matter what I do I can get my foot healed like last time went to the hospital I thought that they were gonna amputate my leg they gave me a prosthesis and it would be you know be bad it was my leg but I have a prosthesis doesn't I'd be able to get around they convinced me you know to fight that and not do that and try to save my leg and I agreed to that so who we are you know months and months down the road where I'm almost in the exact same situation I was in before I had to go before to the hospital we're like this close the nurse told me this morning when I took off the band just morning in my whole foot looked like I had sat in water for a week the whole wound was all they called it masticated it was all pink and yellow and she took a swab and she went into the hole and stuck it in about this far which means that all around that hall is dead stuff and this is really dangerous stuff this is when it starts getting into amputation surgery and all the stuff luckily though now hopefully I'll be able to catch it and get to the doctor and they can do the surgery again without me I happen to get to the point where I'm infected but I'll admit I'm scared I'm stressed and it's been really hard for me to keep up with the channel you guys see the numbers just suck I don't know what the hell that you know YouTube is doing maybe just cuz there are so many people but I don't really know what's going on just seems like my channel they've just left me in the dust because even we do videos that are first even we do videos that other people are doing and we do them better we're still not getting any views and I don't know what to do to change that there's no magic you know stuff like that so you know I've been stressed for money I've been barely able to even cover my bills and keep keep Jesus around here to be the Camryn thing things have gotten really hard and now honestly with this things have gotten worse so my house is dirty I really have no way to clean my house I can't walk or anything again I'm stuck in this wheelchair like it's hard to even get around my house need me to get through doors and it's just really really stressful at this point right now I admit I'm really stressful I am at like the end of my rope with this I just want it to end I want this to end I want to heal I want to move on with my life luckily I have family coming out and they're gonna stay with me they'll be here next Sunday so then hopefully I can just stay upstairs move my filming stuff upstairs and just stay by my bed and heal up and and hopefully it will work but right now I guess you see I'm back in a wheelchair again my foots got a hole in it and it's pretty much less like it's Groundhog Day I went through all this and I woke up the next day and guess what it's the same thing again got a hole my foot good any surgery repetitive repetitive repetitive repetitive in my last video I talked about AMD and how they had this repetitive cycle and I feel like I'm in a repetitive cycle like I said it's Groundhog Day for my foot so I apologize to all the people out there it's hard for us to make as many videos and get as many stuff up it is we're trying to keep up trying to keep afloat but honestly my health has gotten so bad that last week now they have told me that I am going to be on full-time disability I've tried staying off that I don't ever like taking you know free handouts every time I've even asked you guys for help with money and stuff it's been to pay bills it's not for me to go out and have a good time or anything like that and I'm disability I'll probably watch my money get cut more but I'm gonna keep trying to bring the content to the channel keep trying to do it we're doing but once again like I said I'm in a wheelchair my foot is messed up and the cycle begins once again of me trying to have an operation heal up stay off it bla bla bla bla repetitive psychotic cycle repetitive repetitive repetitive honestly it's starting to wear me down I'm not as young as I once was and honestly this stuff is starting to kill me both mentally and physically my blood pressures up my heart rate is up everything is up because I'm just so stressed about what's going on right now I want it to end so those guys out there who are wondering concerned what happen with me as far as like the rest of my body and stuff I'm okay like all the other stuff that was going on before I almost died before that's all pretty much healed up my body's healed I'm not like sick all the time like I was any more like that I'm able to eat and do stuff like that but I'm back in the same position with my foot once again I need surgery once again I'll be off of it it'll be the same cycle that I've been going through so if ya believe in things like god I do then hey I'd appreciate if you'd say a prayer for me because the more prayers out there there's power and healing that way and I would ask that you would do that and if you don't believe in anything then a just have well thoughts for me I'd appreciate that as well so this is Tekken tomorrow I marked I thank you guys for watching we're trying to bring you guys as many videos as possible I just don't know what's happening with my health so someday you don't ever see me back here on the channel no the only reason I that I'm not here is because of my health because I love you guys and even though the numbers are crap I know I still have a lot of still loyal fans that have been around ever since as motherboards not orgs days I love and appreciate you guys and that's why I keep doing this otherwise I would just quit go on disability and just you know go out to pasture and age like an old horse so peace out I love you guys see you guys back home the channel