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hey everybody out there I didn't want you guys to think that I disappeared off the map because I've made videos for a couple of days but there's a reason for that I'm gonna have to take a few days off from doing the YouTube things do the fact that I've had pneumonia since last week and actually had to have an ice bath to break my fevers it went up to 105 so I've been really really sick and let me tell you something nothing hurts more than that damn ice bath it was probably one of the most painful things I've ever experienced I still can barely even talk my throat box is still completely blocked up my lungs have started to clear up a little bit I can finally breathe my temperatures finally broke but I'm not completely out of the woods yet and you guys can hear it I can barely even still use my vocal box kind of really worried that I'll even be able to sing anymore because I said I did such extensive damage and I'll tell you I certainly put the puppy on the ground here cuz he seems not to really be relaxing that much I usually don't eat too much spicy food I like it but I usually don't eat too much because when I do sometimes my stomach doesn't really you know work very well with it and it started out with me just eating some spicy food in the middle of the night one night I woke up and I started throwing up extremely hot hot throw-up the bile it was bright orange bright yellow and it literally just pure acid and when I did that acid excuse me and when I did that I totally burned up my entire esophagus my throat my mouth I had sores in my mouth that just completely burned me up from that stuff and from there it just progressively got worse for two days I thought okay you know I'm gonna have a sore throat and but it'll be okay on Thursday I started really getting sick and by Friday my temperature was a hundred and four I was sweating balls like no tomorrow and was freezing cold all at the same time so it's been really hard for me to do any videos or keep up with the channel like even today my camera came to work but I'm actually you have to send him off to go do some guitar stuff for me just to keep the day busy because as much as I really want to bring videos to you guys right now I honestly have to take a couple break from doing all these videos and get healthy because let's just face it if I don't get better I'm probably going to die many people that are you know in an older age bracket myself included I mean I'm not over the hill totally yet but you know I'm 53 years old almost 54 and my body just really can't handle being this sick and continuing to working on a full-time basis at the same time that I'm the sick now when I was younger if you guys followed me a motherboard side or guy even made videos in the hospital when I had operations even when I got the PICC line in me and they killed me I made videos for you guys all that time even while I was in the hospital and since I've talked to you guys I still get a lot of questions from people ask me why I shake so much well when I had my left foot amputated and they couldn't get the IV in my arm anymore it just wouldn't take so they did this thing called a PICC line Pik a PICC line well when they put the PICC line in the very first thing that they make you do is sign this waiver that says though you know no matter what we do to you we're not responsible well when they put the PICC line into me they pierced my heart with the PICC line completely unprofessional and my left side of my body from here all the way down hurts all the time I mean it hurts so bad that it feels like someone stabbed me in the chest so they've had me I'm pretty hefty pain pills for a while just to deal with that and a lot of times the pain is so bad that I just constantly shake so if you're wondering why shake that's what it is I don't have Parkinson's I mean maybe in the future I'm going to get Parkinson's I mean who knows I probably will because I am starting to shake in my other hand as well it's possible but the reason I shake so much in my left hand is because of that PICC line it really messed me up I've had serious health issues ever since I've turned 40 I don't really understand why before 40 years old I had honestly only had the common cold twice in my life sounds unbelievable right yeah but it's true I was never sick and then I got 40 years old and I started getting sick all the time there's been nothing but a deteriorating down hill thing for my help maybe you guys would have seen me back before I did youtube I was really really heavy in fact even my earlier videos you guys can see in those videos how heavy I and as I've gotten sick or a lot of people like you know hey great diet well when me and Jonathan Morrison from TLD we were going to the gym a lot back when John worked for me I lost a lot of weight doing that but in going to the gym so much that's how I ended up actually giving my other foot amputated because I enjoyed running on the treadmill more than anything else putting on my headphones listening disturbed and rocking out for 45 minutes on a treadmill was honestly my joy I came off completely sweaty every day I felt great but then all of a sudden there was a hole in my foot that got infected and then I got my foot amputated so the whole thing of going to the gym and getting healthy and all that in the way was a good thing but it also backfired it's been really painful because Jonathan had to keep up with his work workouts and everything and moved on without me and it was honestly very painful for me because like John is kind of like to me like a son he's helped me more than anybody else in this life I've learned more from him probably than any other person I have and like it was kind of really really painful for me to like all of a sudden like lose my best friend everything because I could even go to the gym anymore so all these health issues have been very painful to me and have caused me not to be able to do the things I like to do in life and this last bout of pneumonia I actually redid my will because I didn't even know if I was going to make it I was so sick the room was spinning I couldn't hold anything down every inch of my body hurt I've never been this sick before ever I've been sick but not to the point where I was like okay well if I die it'll kind of just be relief to get away from all this pain and that's not suicidal thought it was just like god I'm hurting so dang much my whole body my head everything I just want to just stop because it was so bad hopefully once I get past this though I know not to eat any kind of food that alert made me throw up like that ever again so my diets gonna be more strict now than it's ever been before but really the main message I want to impart you guys is I'm not going anywhere the channel is not going anywhere I just need to take a few days heal up so I can actually bring you guys a video where I don't sound like Kermit the Frog or anything so thanks for being a fan of checking tomorrow I appreciate you guys we'll be back here in just a couple of days with more videos so hey don't go away cuz we'll be back really soon thank you guys all for being here I appreciate your support god bless you all